Wednesday, June 24, 2009

"To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved."
~George MacDonald

Do You Trust Me???

I am somewhat bothered by my man. Why is it when he has a hard day at work, he doesn't want to talk to me about it ? Why does he go to his friend (female), whom I know, and doesn't bother sharing with me ? I just done get it. We can be see other naked, act like idiots at times, wake-up with nasty morning breath, but he doesn't want to talk to me about the stresses in his life ? It pushes me away. I don't like feeling this way.....

Thursday, June 18, 2009

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

~"Far Away" by Nickleback

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Reality Check

Sometimes it takes words that hurt to make you realize your on the verge of losing something that is of great value to you. That exactly what happened to me last night. I have been wanting to talk to "Mr.7" about our "casual dating" relationship that has now made it to 4 months. The expectations of us seeing or dating other people is something that I feel needs to be clear to both parties involved. He has more social time than I do because I am a single mom. I thought we should clear the air on what we expected from each other. Much to my dismay, I got a rude awakening that he was getting very use to not seeing me that much. Unfortunatly, it doesnt even bother him anymore. Pretty much saying, If it works it works, if not so be it. Wow, what happened to the boy who I thought was getting closer to me and wanting to be a bigger part of my life ???? I guess somewhere between being a mom and a part-time casual dater to "Mr.7", I didnt take into account that he needed more.
My plan is to go back to the place I started with him 4 months ago and be that fun, loving, free-spirited, independent girl that he thought was so cute and sassy. (When he's into me, he thinks I'm Sassy.) I have too try to make this work. I think he is a great guy and I want him to be part of my life. If I walked away now, I would regret it forever. Wish me luck.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

Mother Teresa

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Wanting It ALL !

I have to ask, Whats wrong with wanting it all ? Before you answer stop and think about it for a second.... For me, Having my 2 girls and a man who absolutely, adores me all wrapped up in a cute little box (blue, of course) would be the world for me. Hard to believe that's all I want when we live in such a materialistic world. But because we are dealing with hearts and souls, something that money cannot buy, it would be priceless.
My issue is that just when I think I'm on the path to having it all, the little voice inside my head tries so hard to get me to think that it could not possibly be. My relationship with "Mr.7" is moving right along. I feel like we are getting emotionally closer and he is opening up to me more all the time. He really is a great guy and even if it doesn't last forever, he has brought a new perspective to my life and I truly believe that I have grown as a person from knowing him. But nonetheless, I wouldn't mind if he absolutely adored me.... you never know. Open your heart. Open your mind. You might be surprised at what you get and it may be more than you ever thought you needed.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Missin my boy! (How did this happen)

I guess when you say how you feel to the one you care about you have to be prepared for the backlash. And boy does it stings. I told Mr.7 jokingly that "one day he is going to wish he told me how he felt about me". I said that because I'm the one saying I miss waking up to you and falling asleep with you and I get "aha". What the hell does that mean? So I told him that I wish he was more open with me and told me how he felt about me. Is that too much too ask? I don't think so. I spend all my weekends with him when I don't have my daughter. Hey, my time is valuable. That's just the facts. When your getting all free weekend, don't act all crazy when I want to know how you feel about me. I don't do Crazy. I'm a divorced, single, mom, whose x-husband took her for alimony. I'm all maxxed out on that shit!
Where is Mr. Everything ? The guy who wants to put his emotions out there? Anyone know where he is ?