Really ? You Want To Talk ?

For those of you that know me, you would agree that I am not one that puts my feelings out there for others to scrutinize and run over. I have a layer that very few can break through. I'm really not that difficult to figure out, I just have a hard time trusting people and letting them into my life.
What I thought was a very nice, well-thought, full of feelings and emotions e-mail to Mr.7, turned out to be nothing more than a slap in the face. To my amazement, the entire email was broken down and then to top it off I was questioned about my use of words. Asking me "what did you really mean" ? Are you kidding me ? I meant what I wrote. That's what I meant. So, as I sat there trying to explain myself about something that I thought was meaningful, I became slightly resentful about making the attempt to be open and communicate with this guy.
Now its the next day and usually the mind clears and your able to see things from a better perspective. Not so in my case. I am at a place where I wonder if this is right for me ? If even on those rare occasions I make attempt to be a loving girl is this the person who will take me as I am ? Will he understand me ? Take my words for what they are ? I thought he was the guy who would get me. Now I'm not so sure.

I Think Men Need Specific Instructions

One mistake that I continue to make over and over is to think that a man can understand what I'm saying. I mean they listen, (I think), But do they comprehend the words ? In order for a women's needs to be met as she wishes, its always going to be better just to say it. No matter how embarrassing, or blunt we must be. Men just aren't as good at reading between the lines as us women are.
So as I become more insistent on what is acceptable for me in a relationship and what is not I realize that I have to communicate in a way I have never done before. If I don't, guess what ? I get the same crap I have had in the past.
I've also become less acceptable to flaws that i could look past before. Don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for a Perfect person in every single area, but things that are important to me will not be overlooked. Sometimes that's hard. I may have a great connection but if my needs are not met and I feel incomplete in a certain area, then that relationship may not work for me anymore.
What it comes down to is this. My boy, (Mr. 7), is amazing, fun and easy on the eyes. But I have concerns with his reluctance to meet my family. Not because I'm trying to get him to walk me down the aisle. My reason for wanting him to meet my family, is because my 2 sisters are my best friends. I value their opinion. He knows some of my other girlfriends, why not them ?? Maybe he is nervous or scared. Don't know. Or maybe because he is an only child his value of family is different than mine. Whatever it is, I cant fix his issues on it. I can only worry about me and what will and won't be acceptable for me.

Up to Speed

The way it ended with Music boy went a little something like "he ran off to Vegas and got hitched"... Really ? I know. Totally shocker. Was I that blind during the whole dating experience or what. Chalk it up to bad timing. Actually, I'm better without that one. He was too dull and boring for such a hyper chick like me. But why would he NOT want to be with me?? The only thing that got hurt in this relationship was my Ego, and I have 1 less friend on MySpace... Yes, he Deleted me.. Lame.