Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Really ? You Want To Talk ?

For those of you that know me, you would agree that I am not one that puts my feelings out there for others to scrutinize and run over. I have a layer that very few can break through. I'm really not that difficult to figure out, I just have a hard time trusting people and letting them into my life.
What I thought was a very nice, well-thought, full of feelings and emotions e-mail to Mr.7, turned out to be nothing more than a slap in the face. To my amazement, the entire email was broken down and then to top it off I was questioned about my use of words. Asking me "what did you really mean" ? Are you kidding me ? I meant what I wrote. That's what I meant. So, as I sat there trying to explain myself about something that I thought was meaningful, I became slightly resentful about making the attempt to be open and communicate with this guy.
Now its the next day and usually the mind clears and your able to see things from a better perspective. Not so in my case. I am at a place where I wonder if this is right for me ? If even on those rare occasions I make attempt to be a loving girl is this the person who will take me as I am ? Will he understand me ? Take my words for what they are ? I thought he was the guy who would get me. Now I'm not so sure.

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